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Poetry & Lyrics 2001
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The Weapon
©

by Khanåda - 2001


You shrink before the weapon
make peace with your existence
I pressured you and broke the dream
intruded where I shouldn't be
the world was hungry, it always is
chewed you up and spit you out
now you've fallen for it
a love you cannot shake
masochist to the bone
you cry the day is howling
I am hollow, cannot follow
but you like just where you stand
like yin and yang are we
separated by the hungry
there's nothing lonelier than being in love
it's a one way street
we make the decision and follow
kid ourselves it's shared, but emptiness is reward
and true loneliness you cannot understand
make your judgments, you don't know me
they spread their legs to make you happy
don't think I haven't thought it
one after the other
and don't think there's any better
true love is like a feather
it tickles you, you scratch
then the wind carries it away
you'd rather not have it anyway
so cést la vie, there will always be another
eager to open up for you
because it's all just satisfaction
and what is a muse
but just another weapon

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Yes and No©

by Khanåda - Mar. 2001


Gotta fly babe, you know why
Called to you, you know it’s true
It’s no damn fun when she comes undone
But don’t hesitate, ‘cause it’s just too late


you said no, but no means yes
yes means no, so here we go


She’s got your back, 'aint that a fact
On the floor baby wants some more
Dishin’ it out’s what it’s all about
‘cause it’s suicide when you’ve lost your pride


you said no, but no means yes
yes means no, so here we go


you said no, but no means yes
yes means no, I gotta go
again...

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Garden of Heart
©
by Khanåda - 2001

See this poem as ART


My garden of blackened leaves
Do greet the dawn of midnight
Red rain fell hard around us
To drown the earth in splendor
So borne are rivlets flowing
Feeding splendid vines so ripe
Tasted the wine so sweet and red
Turned sick and sorrowed like oil inside
Left me here dying in my plight
Salvation to my heart, it was you
Once love seemed pure and blooming true
Turned rotten and crusty brown with decay
Fooled as if by midday sun
Dark clouds rolling fast entreat
The poet, you were fair with words
Pied piper singing sweet songs to heaven
Now nothing left but moistened eyes
Never drying, ever dying me
Breaking chains to this tree called you
I surrender in release of denial
Knowing sure I shall ever be free
Alone in the garden of my night
Until the dawn in fierce delight
Turns blackened leaves to red

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A-Void©

by Khanåda - 2001

I am a void
You must avoid me
I have no place
No destiny
I am a void
You must avoid me
I love I ache
Too late
I am a void
You must avoid me
Exist not to be
I am free
I am a void
You must avoid me
I affect nothing
Nothing affects me

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Discontent of Days
©
by Khanåda - Revised 2001


When all that matters gathers itself to meet with destiny
the terror of empty hands pouring over again and again
trying to understand the tears in rain so vain
yet without them I could not feel justified
He says, "I don't know you." and I float away
language is void, no words left to say
so I rip apart the superficial to keep me sane
or feed my insanity, either way
he took my hand and broke my heart
fight with self pity just like all the rest
no matter how I look at it - he just never cared

or we were never meant to be

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Do You Now
©
by Khanåda - 2001


Who do I think you are
A simple man, a rock star
Did I pretend to know you
I do now

Who do you think I am
A gentle girl, a clever muse
Did you pretend to love me
You do now

What did I believe in
A true love, a mistake of fate
Did I pretend it was real
I do now

Where do you think we’re going
To eventual union, a final goodbye
Do you intend to do it
You do now

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Extra! Extra!
©
by Khanåda - Mar. 20, 2001


Should I tell the world?
Or would you deny me?
Shout it out
If you’re looking for an out
Me, I’m not blind to reality
Say it like it is
You’re a slave to the biz
But deep inside is where I’ll be
Whether by your side, or lonely
Oh, should I tell the world?
Or would you deny me?
Shout it out
If you’re lookin’ for an out
Hey, I know the consequence
See it like it is
I’m a slave to you
Though I stand here blinded
I can see through
Babe it’s been so long
Though it still feels like yesterday
You keep me here
Caught and sheltered
Desperate to be set free
Only you hold the key
So please tell me
Should I tell the world?
Or would you deny me?
Shout it out
You wanna try me?
I’ll shout it out
If you’re lookin’ for an out…

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Floating©

by Khanåda - Apr. 2001


I nearly drowned
In a sea of emotions
Pushing against the waves
Of your rejection
But I reached the surface
Alone and gasping
And sang the song
Of freedom making rain

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I don't...©

by Khanåda - Nov. 16, 2001


Don't kiss me
I don't want to be kissed
don't touch me
I don't want to be touched
I don't want to feel
don't want to feel helpless
don't want to feel small
Don't talk down to me
I don't want to talk
Don't hold me
I don't want to be held
I don't need
don't need you
don't want to want
don't want to care
Don't hurt me
I don't want to hurt
don't want to hurt
anymore

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On High©

by Khanåda - Mar. 2001


I fell from the sky
Where you put me on high
Realities a bummer
I’m just another number
Same as all the rest
We failed that little test
Here I am, this is my life
I am drowning, my soul is ripe
You can wipe the slate
Though it seems it’s too late
What was there for so long
Was never there to be gone
So if I die tomorrow
Let there be no sorrow
For I will be free
Never loved, lonely me
The truth will come calling
No more will I be falling
I’ll take to the skies
Where you’ll put me on high

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September Rain©

by Khanåda - Rev: 2001


There’s a gentle breeze, it’s September
And the thunder’s rolling in
Then fondly I remember
The times you let me in
Cry tears as rain gathers above
Working magic in the sky
To rain down on my love
Let go September rain
Flood my ground, come to drown
This pain
Feel no peace this September
Empty hands empty heart
And I ache for you
Every second we’re apart
No such love can gather in
Like September rain
Fill my heart, fill my hands
And I ache for you
Let go September rain
Flood my ground, come to drown
This pain

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The Muse©

by Khanåda - 2001


I, the muse am just a poet
harmless and I think you know it
paint pretty rhymes to fill your heart
while left alone I fall apart
use my pain, my love, my hurt
now you've got an albums worth
take my years of inspiration
a trade for face to face rejection

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Until December©

by Khanåda - 2001


Ghosts of the past still linger on
Carry my breath until the dawn
I will accept it and feel the pain
Search my soul for you again
And again
Until December
When all is said and done
My December
Without you I die alone
Year after year for long and long
I held my breath for you to come
But time is empty and love is pain
Search my soul for you again
And again
Until December
When I’m old and gray
My December
Without you I die alone
Never to have known
I die alone

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Waiting For Nothing©

by Khanåda - Spring 1993 (Rev:Apr. 2001)


I’ve wept for you in disbelief
Of how we came to be
The years we’ve spent so far apart
Our time we could not see
But as you learn the truth inside
And your own realities
The more you find, the less you have
We’ve been waiting for nothing you see
While in our minds we meet so well
Beyond this worldly mess
We unite in love and tenderness
Yet never know the rest
But as I learn the truth inside
And my own realities
The more I find, the less I have
We’ve been waiting for nothing I see
So now’s the time when all comes out
And the verge of union rests
Though pain in brings at last we learn
Out worlds apart are vast
And as we learn the truth inside
And our own realities
The more we find the less we have
We’ve been waiting for nothing you see

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Where You Belong©

by Khanåda - Mar. 2001


Forgive me baby it’s been so long
And you might think that it’s all long gone
I make on judgments, never followed the rules
A peasant in this world enamored with you
Know I was wrong, made mistakes, tempted fate
Like you said long ago, it’s always been too late
‘cause in this world of class and pride
We each have our places on opposite sides
And the gnawing pain that’s eaten at me
Has made me surrender and set it free
I could take back a volume of all I said
To calm the waters and cool your head
But with age comes reflection and gentle release
And I accept my place in it with a sense of peace
I can tell when I see you that you have moved on
And where you are now is where you belong
But just know in my heart you will always be
Like an unfinished poem, for eternity.

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Which Feeling is Real©

by Khanåda - 2001


How do I feel
Which feeling is real
when all I know is doubt
and I find I'm running out
of time

How do I feel
Which feeling is real
when time after time I try
to look beyond the lie
and find there's nothing left
but truth

How do I feel
Which feeling is real
what standing do I take
when so much is at stake
I fight

How do I feel
Which feeling is real
day by day I twist
to satisfy this itch
and keep this nagging twitch
in me

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You Don’t Know Me©

by Khanåda - 2001


Say the word
You don’t know me
It’s all in my head
You don’t know me
Tell the world
You don’t know me
‘cause if you did
you wouldn’t be afraid
feel good around me
open up to me
but you’re scared
‘cause you don’t know me
Spread the word, no I’m not mad
It’s all in my mind, but I’m not mad
Tell the world that I’m not mad
‘cause if I was
I would be afraid
Take back all I said
Pretend we never had
But you’re the one who’s scared
‘cause you don’t know me

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Medusa Smiling©

by Khanåda - Rev 2001
Published in"Before The Shadows Fade"
and the Eternal Portrait Series:"Chateaux Dass La Brume"

Medusa’s on the water
Black moon setting for the rising sun
Beneath the surface the land is cold
Waiting…
Medusa’s smiling
Stone flowers in her hands
Stretching her soul
To roam the earth within
Tasted the blood on her lips
Blood for pain or for love again
Medusa’s crying
So tired of his game
Stretching her heart
To try and love again
Tasted the blood on his lips
Blood for love or blood for pain
Medusa’s in the sky
Cool evening air rises to night
On the horizon dark clouds gather
Waiting…

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